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navi:
we are medjed. we are unseen, we will eliminate evil.

俺は死んだ、俺の目を見ろ....見えないの か?
♡ nso ♡ persona ♡ nieR ♡ LoZ

current interests: FFVII, blue archive, nieR, zelda, persona, nso, osu, dungeon meshi, fate/sn, dangan ronpa, pokemon, blue reflection.

[i]dentity kin:
futaba sakura | midna | nanachi | akane shinjo | chiaki nanami | rina tennoji | megumin | ouran nakagawa | penny (pkmn) | marnie (pkmn) | yuffie katsuragi | lacey (pkmn) | ui kozeki | roxy migurdia | finch & nia (xc2)
[L]ow kin
vex (lol) | aiko tanaka | himiko yumeno | ruri gokou | rikka takanashi | shizuku murasaki | roxy migurdia | tomoko kuroki | kagari izuriha | | arima kana | saiba momoi | anzu futaba | ame chan | acerola | rin tohsaka | stocking anarchy | ririchiyo shirakiin | ena shinonome | harmony (splatoon) | mirai kuriyama
characters i relate to: (not kin)
kainé | asuka langley | homura akemi | aoi mukou | zakuro takashima | shinku | hanekawa tsubasa | shinobu oshino | gloria (pkmn) | ciel phantomhive

꒰ love ame-chan since 2022꒱

hello im navi, im a insecure girl. im not very good at describing myself but i have a love and passion for video games and my favourite characters. i like depressing media, games, books, anime. i have so many characters i love but ame-chan is my most favourite character in the world. shes my oshi and ive supported her since 2022 ever since the game came out, and ive collected her figures and merch. i'm very enthusiastic about figure collecting! and have been doing it for a couple of years now. i have a collection of over 150+ figures. i love talking about figures and discussing new ones coming out.i love being alone most of the time, dark fantasy, tech nerd, gothic themes. i play a lot of games, and watch a lot of anime so my interests likes to change overtime the more media i consume, but i enjoy everything ive played and watched and always will.im gatekeepy of my interests because these things are my comforts and i feel uncomfortable sharing them with others in fear of them liking it for distasteful reasons. my kins are especially very important to me, on a deep, philosophical and personal level. i only am okay with others relating to them if were very close friends or someone i trust, or want to be closer with. i have trouble trusting others due to my past experiences with people losing my trust. if you do interact please be wary im very frail and timid and probably will have trouble trying to communicate at all.i dislike sexual jokes that involve me. and insensitive humor.
i post gore, self harm, and i talk about very mature topics.
im diagnosed with bpd, bipolar and asd.
extbyf

twenty | intp | melancholic-choleric
韓国人と日本人 | cosplayer
♡ ame yumejoshi | gothic lolita

favourite characters:
9S | 2B | A2 | brother nier | emil | raihan | suigintou | shinku | kurumi tokisaki | celestia ludenburg | chariot | kyoko kirgiri | junko enoshima | shinobu oshino | ciel phantomhive | akira kurusu | saya | hanekawa tsubasa | ranni the witch | malenia | flandre scarlet | remilia scarlet | nia | pyra | chise hatori | diana cavendish | miyuki sone | chidori yoshino | shimoe koharu | plana
favourite games:
persona 3, 4, 5 (reload & portable) | nieR automata & replicant | FFVII remake
Xenoblade chronicles 2 | twilight princess | saya no Uta | elden ring |
needy girl overdose | dangan ronpa | totono | prsk | subarashiki hibi | omori
+ more
planning to play:
crystar | made in abyss binary star | tears of the kingdom | drv3 | dr despair girls | rabi rabi | blue reflection | ffxiii

favourites list

꒰ 9S my beloved꒱

q&a

q: what is a synpath?a: characters i heavily relate to, but I dont see them as myself, or only a few aspects.
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q: what is lowkin?
a: characters that i relate to, and think of as myself but they are not as high as my identities.
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q: what is kinninga: relating to, or being the character physcially, mentally or emotionally. my identities are just characters that are exactly like me. so its a ficitional character that reminds you of yourself, or IS yourself.
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q: what is an yumejoshi
a: (夢女子 . dreaming girls) in japanese. means girls who ship themselves with their favourite fictional character, and to believe they are in a relationship with them. Just like for me i ship myself with ame and have been with her since 2022. self shipping.
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q: why do you kin?
a: to identify and relate with something. due to trauma, ptsd or past experience. to relate to something fictional, if you cannot relate to a real person, or have trouble relating to others.

[Q]uestionable actions

byf

♡ if youre a minor dont interact.
♡ i am a pro shipper.
( i believe in the, its fictional so its not real. and does not determine my real world values. )
♡ i only accept fr from mutuals or people who have read my carrd.
♡ i am a fujoshi and a himejoshi.
♡ i ship sebaciel, and some controversial ships.
♡ i dont like the sexualization of kins or favourites.
♡ i like controversial anime. and i also collect figures and merch from controversial media.
♡ if we have the same kins i might not interact.
♡ dni if basic criteria, or against my hobbies.

The [E]nd of YoRHa

where you can find me:twitter
throne wishlist
_my figure collection
instagram
anilist
backloggd
collector instagram

more about mei felt a lil insecure writing more about myself so i decided to write a extended bio, i tried to make it a little hidden since i feel like this can be too personal. im 20 dealing without alot of psychological problems as of late. im a gothic lolita girl, i love art, video games, mainly the horror, jrpg story type games. i have issues talking to people........... sometimes i ghost others without really meaning to out of fear of attachement, i avoid messaging because im genuinely afraid and i feel overbearing sometimes. i have a big fear of hurting others, getting close to others because i feel like im genuinely a terrible person because of having bpd, tendency to be selfish. this is why i avoid people. i have a very unstable self image, and i compare myself to others all the time. i dont entirely lack empathy but i have had issues with my mood being unemphatic or cruel. i can be childish and unaware of my toxic behaviours. sometimes im not really sure of my own identity, and it can really damage me psychologically.with kinning im trying to get better with doubles, but they really do affect me more that id like to. it really affects my own identity when i see others relate to characters i love. it hurts, but i understand deeply why others relate to them, and i try very hard to be sympathetic to others. but sometimes it can be very hard for me, especially when im having very bad episodes. i relate to all my kins so deeply, whether it be through my trauma or just how i act as a person. i see them as me entirely, but if you relate to it thats okay. i probably will not interact if you relate to them, not because of you, but because of myself, and im sorry for that. im trying very hard to learn to be better.i really like nieR if you cant tell.... i got into it recently and became obsessed with yoko taros story telling. i even 100% automata and replicant because i loved the game so much. i like others games like the persona series 3 through 5. denpa visual novels like saya, subahibi, totono, nie no hakoniwa, euphoria. dangan ronpa series, and many others games... im obsessed with video games because its my own escapism. i watch tons of anime, own hundreds of figures...... i am a real hikkikomori otaku girl. i love alot of anime especially shoujo... slight fujoshi and himejoshi. i enjoy nostalgic anime. i like to rewatch anime from when i was a kid.im a very shy person and im rly bad at talking sorry! im trying not to use social media as much anymore so if you try to msg me and want to be friends msg me on @kuroololi on twitter :) though sometimes i dont accept randoms, but id like to try.